The recent turn of events in my life have all but challenged my socks off! Questioning my ability to perform certain business-related tasks, second-guessing my knowledge base about things I know that I know from years of training. Rejection hurled me into a realm of depression that caused me to react in ways I had not envisioned were even possible ~~ for me. After all, I’m a “new creature,” right?
But with all things, everything took me and continues to take me back to God.
And I am here to declare that because I am a new creature in Christ, He continually reminds me of His unfailing love. Girlfriend, this is what has held me together for these past couple months ~~ Holy Spirit infused, God ordained, unfailing love that pours over me like a torrential rainstorm.
When the world around you seems to haunt you about your insecurities, you’re left feeling inadequate and uncertain about yourself and your future.
“Did God really want me in that place … doing that thing … with those people …” And on and on and on the circle of questions go for what seems an eternity. Praise God that I have yet to fully understand ‘eternity.’
It took me several weeks to finally wrap my mind around what was true …
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Philippians 4:8 NIV
I had taken my focus and my mind off of the right things to meditate upon ~~ my initial misery took my eyes off the Spiritual Prize and soon I was caught up in the woes of the season. If not for the hearing of the Word from my pastor, my sisters-in-Christ … had I ceased to read my Bible, stopped Fellowship … had I stopped all praying and seeking God, I would have allowed a bad season suck the life out of me.
Those few acts of connection kept me in open to hearing God’s Whispers, but I was still sulking in my sorrows; still feeling hopeless.
When I came to the realization that God still has (notice the present tense) a divine purpose far beyond what I see in the immediate forefront of my life, I began to rise up to meet God and welcome the challenge.
My spiritual ears perked when I heard key words and phrases that seem to knit (maybe I should say ‘crochet’ ~~ for those who know me intimately) together the recent threads of events to form something quite beautiful and amazing. A ‘tapestry’ of indescribable proportions, as far as I am concerned. (Stick with me, Girlfriend, and you will witness it alongside me in the coming months, years ~~ God’s Perfect Timing.)
As if God Himself was drawing back a veil and showing me that His Purposed Plan was about to be revealed to me ~~ not necessarily put in motion, but to give me a hope that if I remain obedient everything will come to clear view at the Perfect Time ~~ which in my case, historically, is usually the unexpected time.
Scripture verses that I would read on a given day would “fit” into the theme of the day (that’s what I call the God Life Lesson for the moment ~~ which could last a day, several days, even a week or longer). A pastoral message or a Christian author’s blog would strike my heart and leave me with ‘an aha moment.’
The threads have been slowly pulled together and I’m starting to utter the words, “I get it, Lord!” And ‘sew’ I have changed my attitude and raised my altitude.
When your human eyes finally catch up to your spiritual eyes, you feel the burden lift.
I began to realize that the dots were connecting all along, but I didn’t notice because my head was hung so low, my view was distorted. Note to self: always look up.
Those tiny treasures that God placed in my heart a handful of years ago, will not rust ~~ the moths will not eat them. I committed those precious things to Him, because He gave them specifically to me. And He will develop them for His Purpose …
Because I am Purposed.
Sweet Sister of mine ~~ whatever season you are in at this exact moment ~~ be assured
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:8-9 NIV
God’s unfailing love is big enough, strong enough, all encompassing and everlasting ~~ will hold you up until He takes you Up.
When you think you just can’t take it anymore, and you’re ready to pull out every strand of all that gorgeous hair on your pretty little head of yours, remember:
But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.
Exodus 9:16 NIV
Sister, you have a definite and unique purpose.
Listen to what God said to Esther through her Uncle Mordecai:
For if you remain silent at this time, liberation and rescue will arise for the Jews from another place, and you and your father’s house will perish [since you did not help when you had the chance]. And who knows whether you have attained royalty for such a time as this [and for this very purpose]?”
Esther 4:14 Amplified
Embrace your place and bask in His Grace.
He has Purposed your life, Girlfriend.
I love you to Heaven and Back ~~